Doing multiple outlets/facets of creativity, but perhaps feeling similar things I felt when I was still in college, committing myself to too many things. In a musical, helping do production design on a movie, writing/practicing music for my first 45-minute set with my sister at a highly populated venue, making crocheted crafts for said venue... I may be in over my head again. Also trying to keep up with friends in Japan and trying to be a little be responsible helping take care of the dog we found abandoned in the woods, provide a place for nomads and other people seeking sanctuary to rest and be safe.

I don't want any of these things to not be happening. I think I just took on a lot at once, maybe in a desperate attempt to avoid having to think about my estrangement from both Japan and America, now not knowing what "home" is for me. It's not fair of me to use my creative outlets as a means to an end other than the good of the creative outlets. I'm just a little confused and lying sideways inside my head, looking at everything turned at a 90 degree angle. It's not necessarily good for me, but it's a temporary means of coping till I have my seasonal nervous breakdown.